Secretscankill

sweet. man dont i love being confused.
im not sure what to do but uhhh i dont know.
I want to go out tonight. But i deff wont.
I sort of just want to go to bed and not wake up for a
long time. geeezzz this is insane. i hope
that i dont wake up cuz i dont want to deal
with tomorrow...tryouts and church.
my two favorite things in the world. wahoo
watching videos is keeping me sane. 
Christmas and tinsel are soon. that should be fun.
I'm looking forward to them since tinsel is in
a week. boys are insane. laterr.
<3 love you

So I've been a little busy lately. Ive been doing some gay ass projects for some teachers that really need to go to hell. Yea what funn. But no school today annndddd its Thanksgiving!! yesssss. I need some fun...hopefully going out tonight. 
 
I <3 you all.

ok so yesterday was kind of crazy. i went to get a new phone after school with the family and that took a little longer than expected. But anyways everything was straightened out and i have an amazing phone right now. I realize now that Rachael loves to talk to people. a whole hour and a half about nothing with that much importance. It was pretty funny though. Well she helped me solve a little problem that was reoccurring and now that its over i feel relieved. So now in return I get tell this one guy for her that shes not interested in him. I love how this relationship works. But today should be a fun day now. Rach might be coming with me to a Thanksgiving Dinner at my church and well thats basically a blast. Going to tinsel...wow am I happy about that. Going to try and do homework so I dont have to do it tomorrow along with try-outs. What funn.

Later Loves <3

Nothing you can say will make this smile come off my face. = ) So happy right now. I'll fill you all in later. On to a class with my sister. wahoo.
Later Loves <3

So I dont think I've ever been this confused about a guy, and honestly--I'm not too worried about it. It's just lame as it is. So todays work out wasnt hard at all. We spent most of the time talking which is an excellent thing since I don't really want to keep all this hard work going all year round. So I found out that not only had I made 2nd Niagara Frontier League team for volleyball, but I also made the 2nd All Western New York team as well. That is soo amazing. Rach made 1st team and Jenna made the 2nd team with me. We are so lucky because we are the only three on varsity to be on the All WNY team. So basically we are the shit. Tomorrow I'm supposed to help Rich with his volleyball moves during physics, this should be interesting. hehe. anyways...today wasn't completely terrible. I laughed about some random things like my usual life and tomorrow I have to go to the eye doctor. Nothing really special at all. Didn't bother to do anything tonight except watch the Sabres lose. That was a little depressing. If only Max Afinegenov wasn't injured then maybe we wouldnt lose. Speaking of him, he went into Wegmans yesterday. Surprisingly Jenna said that some people had no idea who he was...thats a little depressing. And they also said that they wanted to go and say something to him because he parked in a handicap spot. Somethings are just so random in life. New math groups suck. But luckily my teacher is oblivious to somethings that my friends and i do and Im in somewhat the same group as before. Man he can be an idiot at times. I have had a loss of sleep these last few nights and well...I think I might try and sleep before midnight. That's my goal. Somehow I doubt it will happen..its a tough stretch. Oh well. Anndd how could I forget that Josh M is basically hilarious in Stats, although im not to keen on the whole tickling me..but its still a blast.

Later Loves <3

P.S. >>I love remembering things that made me laugh a while ago, and seeing if they still give me that same feeling. This one certainly does. I <3 Calp foreverr.

so basically im not wasting my time anymore. If you like me come and get me..I'm not chasing you around. Get over yourself.

YES OF COURSE!! What is the purpose of a life without a livejournal?? nothing. at all. I decided that why not go back to this fun and spill out my guts for everyone to see and read. It's the best way in the world and is far better than a lame pen and notebook. So let's start with this. _{BOYS ARE A WASTE OF TIME!} Makes sense, dont you agree? Like I love talking to them but they just cause so much confusion with that whole, crushing process. I wish it was more like: "I like you, you like me...so lets just go out okay?". But nooo. There's all the flirting and the uncertainty and well it sucks. And the sad part is I can say all I want that I'm not going to continue with it and juust be more open about everything but I know I won't. That's the truth. Tinsel's coming up and I hate it because I don't know what is going to happen. So thats my thoughts on boys. Girls are worse though. All that petty crap makes me angry. I hate how they change their minds so quickly as to who is their friend and who isn't. And I absolutely lovee when they change their minds everyday. One day we are soo close and like best friends; but the next thing I know they hate me or are like fed-up with me. It's almost as though they want to kick my ass. Mann does this get tough. Oh and my favorite type of things that girls do is this: when they know you like someone, they like him too or they try to get with him almost like inspite of you. That just makes my day. I wonder if some do it on purpose or does it just come naturally to them? One of the many questions left unanswered. Working out today sucked big time. My abs hurt and my legs are a tiny bit, but not as bad as I thought after all those lunges and such. That girl really keeps her body in shape. Next year when we are captains we will be making everyone do that because our team cannot suck. Heather is once again in the hospital and is really worrying me. I really want her to come back to school. I wish life wasn't so complicated. Oh and P.S. I am so nervous about try-outs. I want to make the national team, but then again I don't. Like I love Kate and I think if it came down to it I would rather play on a team with her than with the ones who are also trying out. It is all so confusing and I really have to think about what I want to get out of this and who I want to be with. So now I'm going to finish up the conversations online and hope that he likes me as much as i like him but we all know that is a lie. So basically tomorrow should be grannddd. 
Later loves <3

Well I haven't been on this is soo long. Life is way too busy to keep up with this. But now I have the time today since i just got my wisdom teeth out. cant talk or anything. want to go to practice but i doubt that that will happen sunday. I just hate sitting around like this without talking or anything. tv and ice cream are my best friends right now. =] my whole bottom jaw is numb still. im going to get some music. later.

P.S. COLUMBUS IS AMAZINGG

tourney was great. i am super tired. i cant wait to go to bed. later. see ya at school.

soo i really love LAURA ANNE PTAK cuz shes amazing and is like the only one that actually cares enough about me to read thiss. I am super thrilled. I cant wait. This tournament is amazing. everyone i no from volleyball will be there that is under the age of 17. i lovee seeing old friends. I play Rachaels team first. this will be interesting. oh man am i happy. i get to see laura. =] AHH. Kate and i are PUMPED. so if anyone isnt sooo worried about making the super bowl nichols is ready for a tournament. comee seee. laterr.





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